Dear 15 year
old Kimi,
Today you entered into a world I had hoped you never would. I had hoped you would just go on blindly sailing through
life, never thinking about the illness that almost took your life, 14 years ago
when you were still in Korea. Unfortunately, every time you think it’s over, it’s
just beginning. You will be forced to face things, I never thought you would.
You will go through surgery after surgery never getting answers. I know this
sounds like a nightmare, and trust me it will be, but there’s a light at the
end of the tunnel for everyone including you! You will turn into the most
compassionate, forgiving person ever.
You will have “treatments” you never
dreamed of. Complications you never knew could happen. But you will in the
process of this entire nightmare, gain the most beautiful soul you could have
ever imagined. If you don’t believe me, I will give you a list of the wonderful
things you will gain through this nightmare.
·
Understanding-You
will have many failed surgeries. That I will not lie about. But you will begin
to understand that all these surgeries were helping your doctor to figure out
what is wrong with you, and you will unfortunately learn that because of the
nature of your problem, surgery is the only option, and you will do so with
unfailing grace.
·
Your
doctor is explaining to you. Explaining, Explaining, and Explaining. Sometimes
you don’t even know what he is talking about. Sometimes you will just want to
tune him out. But you will learn even though you’re shy, you need to be a
proactive part of your health care. So much so that you will buy books on neurosurgery,
and watch TV shows. And your doctor will make you write papers for him to
understand your medical care better. So better just to figure it out for
yourself. ;)
·
He’s
telling you all the odds, and you always seem to be on the losing end of it.
But somehow you find through that infinite grace I talked about, how to be
thankful for everything you have, even if you are on the wrong side of the
odds. And you will be on the wrong side more times than the right side.
Today is a turning point. You have jumped in. You can’t go
back. You are now in the line of fire. You have two choices though the last two
choices you will ever make regarding your illness. You can either give up, and
take the easy way out, OR fight with all your heart. You can embrace this
unpredictable illness, and show it that it will never define who you are. And
you will find yourself in the process. You will be glad you were made the way
you were…
Sincerely,
Still fighting
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